I Just Did These 2 Things — Now I’m Finally Free

How buying a motorbike at 51 and writing my truth pulled me out of the fog — and started a movement for riders who feel lost, stuck, or invisible.

Not free like on-a-beach-with-no-emails free. Free like my lungs can breathe again. Free like my voice isn’t a whisper anymore. Free like I’m finally living instead of surviving.

And I owe it to just two things:🏍 Buying a motorcycle at 51💬 Telling the truth — finally.

Let me explain.

1. I Bought a Motorcycle — Terrified and Totally Underprepared

I didn’t buy it because I was fearless. I bought it because I was drowning. Completely in my life.

Midlife at 51 had rolled in like black fog. My career was pretty awful and I was struggling through freelance work. My family was ok but I was cut off. And as for me?I felt like a ghost. Stuck. Drifting. Silent. Flatlining behind my own eyes without even time to blink.

Then one Sunday afternoon, I looked at a Kawasaki Ninja 125 online and whispered, What if?

Not what if I crash it, or what if I look ridiculous, or what if I’m too old? But what if this is how I find myself again?

So I did it. I bought the bike six months after taking my CBT. Just like that. I bought a bike I hadn’t even seen in the showroom. Trembled through every side turning in Swindon, every bunny hopped clutch stall, every panic at the lights. And somewhere between first gear and the next wrong turn, I found something: myself.

Because when you ride, you can’t lie. Ever. You can’t hide in your head or pretend you’re okay. Never. You’re forced to be completely present, even when you’re scared. Especially then. Because your life depends on it.

2. I Told the Truth — Publicly, Loudly, Through Tears

Here’s the part that changed everything:

I started writing it all down through The Brave Rider Diaries. Every wobble. Every emotional breakdown.

Every triumph that looked like just making it up the driveway without crying.

And I published it on Medium. Then wrote a book — Full Throttle Full Heart — because it was with a full heart that I ride.

The response was thunderous. Tens of thousands of reads and views around the world.

Not because I was brave. But because I was honest. Deeply and there is more to come when I am brave enough. And honesty? That’s rare in a world addicted to curated perfection.

People didn’t care that I was older. Or scared. Or slow to learn. I didn’t even care myself. They cared because they saw themselves in me. They saw their own silent fears — and finally felt permission to speak them aloud.

That’s how Full Throttle Full Heart was born. That’s how The Brave Rider Diaries took off. That’s how I went from doubting everything… to building a movement that now helps other riders rediscover confidence, identity, and purpose.

You Don’t Need to Be Fearless. You Just Need to Start.'

You don’t have to ride a superbike. In fact, any bike will do. You don’t have to be young, or fit, or tattooed, or cool. You just need to want something more. Freedom. Clarity. Joy. Truth.

And here’s the truth no one told me until I lived it: Motorcycling isn’t just about speed. It’s about stillness inside the chaos. It’s therapy. It’s transformation. It’s the boldest, most beautiful way to come back to life.

The Invitation

If you’ve been stuck .f you’ve been silencing yourself. If you’ve been waiting for “the right time” to live again —

Stop waiting.

Do the two things that changed everything for me:

🏍 Get on the bike.💬 Tell your truth.

And if you need a guide, Full Throttle Full Heart is waiting for you. I wrote it for you — the scared ones, the late bloomers, the brave souls trying anyway.

Because sometimes, all it takes is one ride and one honest sentence…To change everything.

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